Know him, Martin 'Ultraboy' Shin.

你。

2011-12-18T12:23:00.002+08:00

你很讨人厌你知道吗？

你这种女人，破坏了整个市场。

也只有你，能让你之后的女生都显得特别渺小。

也只有你，能让我两年后还是进退两难，在原地踏步。

也只有你，可以让我为爱情而感到难过和惋惜。

太狠了。

Guitaar.

2011-12-18T12:16:00.002+08:00

Guitar guitar, are you game for a ride.

I might need you tonight.

It's cold, sorry to put you through this.

Your melody is the only warmth left.

I'll be grateful..

for the last space to hide.

Why are you so nice to me.

2011-07-12T14:06:00.002+08:00

thankyoudad.

thanks for the pull, thanks for the wings.

i think i could fly like that with you watching.

I love my mom too, but i guess, we could never be on the same page.

You will understand me better if you see less of my imperfections.

Retreat.

2011-07-12T13:09:00.003+08:00

Can't believe, i retreated to this space tonight.

I was weak last time, that's why i was here.

Today, I am still weak, but i know i've to be strong for all the people around me right now. The whole world is watching our moves, i no longer belong to just myself. I've to be someone else to make something out of nothing.

So, please be a space, where i could let down my guard. A space, to bleed and echo to myself.

I don't want to whine about everything. But i just want to say, expectations are killing me. People i care for, they judged me. Even family took away my last space to seek comfort in everyday failures.

I am only human. There's only this amount of things i could handle. Don't add salt to my wounds. It won't help me. Just more pressure.

彻底失败。

2011-01-19T18:21:00.002+08:00

最近做什么都屡战屡败, 失去了，错过的，太多.

K歌也令我有点情绪病，歌曲总带给我种种过去的轨迹，特别是一些还未放不下的牵绊。

but i'll keep my head up..冬天再残酷，温和的春天还是会来临。

过度期....不能懦弱，要自强。

街灯灭了，我用手机点亮自己的世界。
shin.

一年来, 多的是你不知道的事.

2010-11-21T09:32:00.003+08:00

都很痛.

2010-11-16T07:57:00.000+08:00

Why i always focus on things that im not good in.

Maybe there's nothing im good at.

A post, supposedly to heaven.

2010-10-16T02:24:00.003+08:00

Thankyou lord for answering to our prayer,

Please heal those who's suffering, all her pain, and the broken heart around her.

With love,
Martin Ultraboy Shin

MotherShip Connection Funknight Baby!

2010-10-09T11:43:00.016+08:00

ALL THE WAY TO THE UNDERGROUND DANCE PARTY, LITERALLY UNDERGROUND.

Welcome to MotherShipConnection. Brought to us funkatrons by Kaseem and Hideki!

It was such a big success, a platform for dancers to party the night away our way, the underground way, the real way！Hands down one of those party that must be kept alive at all course. we show people how to party. that's wassup. It just get more fly editions after editions. The venue was brilliant, pulling it off Delancey Lounge basement, not glamorous like a typical nightclub, but definitely brought back the good ol' underground flava. Love the coziness, absolutely no guy grinds girl, no desperate dudes and bitches lurking around. Fuck that look-good-look-hot-bullshit. We take party back to the basics. Do what we do best, dance to the music!

It's all about sharing and love, bonding as a community of funloving partygoers!

Some photos i took from the mothership albums! Made new friends and bond steps closer with the current ones. Let photos do the talking my friend.

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-PHOTO SPAMS-

Hideki Takahashi getting down. The organiser of MSC 3rd edition. Very nice friendly dude, and i won't forget our little impromptu fresno tag against sugaloo. LOL. All in the name of fun brother! Bound to see you soon considering your activeness in the local dance scene.

OG BamBam, and MSC organiser Kaseem Bristow! Kaseem kaseem..One encouraging dancer. You see him running back and forth tryna make people dance! A whole ton of positive energy coming from him. I was very much infected by this energy, and im sure everyone felt the same too. bro, thanks for the compliment, i will work harder. You said im the beast, nah ah, you the beast! Alot more to learn from you and everyone else. Respect, and look up to you.

Poppin Lee! Repping Takala land Crew, wo men de crew master aka Kungfu bear! With a big heart to build the dance scene. Very skilled, some of the sickest waving skill.

Takala Land Crew! Lee, Jun and Jins. Tryna get the lady huh. wahahah! now, its 4 men strong team.

DJ JazeArt spinning. And DJ Peace too, but i can't find his photo. Awesome funk music. To me, they were like the foundation for the party. No music, no dance. And that means, no party. mad props to them!

2 beautiful ladies in the event. They are so dope. Watched them waacking, battling the whole time. Very inspired by their interpretation of music. Hope get to meet them again! And the dude on the right is my boy, Yoshi. hahhaa! We the Saturday session's regulars.

Mike Lambert! Came all the way from the West Coast, Another amazing locker i met that night. Very good flow and musicality. It's soft, funky and groovy but on point. Alot of knowledge and techniques behind his movement too. Yo people, he is organising the first NYC locking open session starting next week. Please do come support if you love to have an active locking training spot to share and learn. I am sure you gonna meet loads of dancers with good heart. Underground dancers, we all got a big heart. Dance for soul, not for gold.

last dude, Sugaloo Shindo. SICK popper, nuff said. SICK, YOU SICK. I LOVE YOU SUGALOO. hahaha. No homo. But yo, he is just so fun to mess with. I almost felt no pressure dancing with this dope niggabro. Always fun to have him around haha. Just like Kaseem, always emitting some form of positive energy and you just feel the good vibes that gets you doing your thang too.

Im done with all this picture-telling shit. Going to rest soon. Tmr a long day. Outta house early for my X-ray scan, Sales at JCPenny, yumcha with family, and then dance spree at night PMT studio.

(P.S. Hope my knee recovers soon. Pray for me people. Im out. )

懂得分享艺术的人, 都是有心人.

Best for the soul,
Martin 'Ultraboy' Shin.

College, and a little bit of junglin'.

2010-10-08T16:29:00.011+08:00

Printer that prints human organs!! WHAT THE FUDGE!?

Yeah, probably the most random and shocking shit i heard of the day. Go google it up people, i read up on it, and gosh, technology really flew by day. Whoever came out with this creation must be one mad scientist to even brainstorm about something so unreal. Printing 3D projectile at a cellular level. Seriously, getting so fly, that it really defy god's domain. Manipulating life...hmmm...interesting, what's your take?

Just get us thinking...

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HALLOWEEN AROUND THE CORNER!

Some festive presence being captured in campus. Check out facebook event invitations, all the halloween parties start opening up for us funloving souls! Well, this year going to be my first ever time actually participating in a halloween. A real halloween party we talkin' about homies, all the way in Flushing! Close event so do tell me if you wanna come thru! My nigga 'Boy' Alex organised it, and we just gotta give this fella mad props for putting up this non-profit party. It is all in the name of fun and love, so do come through to help him cover the club rental fees, which is a pretty decent amount, that can cause some damage to the wallet. rofl. And of course, most importantly, come through to have loads of fun! Marks the best halloween 2010 for yourself.

And i've yet to decide on my halloween costume. Initial idea was to get this ultraman costume, but on second thought, i wanna be a pirate instead! eye-patch on, spike and spray my haido some unnatural color. Dragonball crossover Onepiece? heh. It's going to get funky on Oct 31!

(P.S i found this halloween dog costume and i thought it was for men. That's going to be one shag party crawling on all four while night long. It's on my facebook wall anw, go check it out haha. )

Can't wait...can't wait...

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JUNGLING OF ULTARABOY EPISODE 1

All in the name of a class assignment, i will be jungling once every week, meditating, getting close to the nature. Tons of phototaking, making observations and writing poems/journals. The final report is pretty cool though. 'Express and sum up the whole assignment in any form of your desired expression, which can be a painting, poem, rap, novel etc.

Imma going abit out-of-the-box, or maybe just put it as utilizing what i do best. Me, going to put up a dance for the class. Maybe is a breakthrough, i've got zero intention to prepare or choreograph anything for that. Just pure feeling and freestyle. That's what the nature all about. Season changes, and the whole eco-system reacts to it accordingly. Just like dance, different music, borns different feeling, different style of dance.

I just thought of something random.

'Not dancing to the music, is wearing sleeveless through winterim."

Best for the soul,

Martin 'Ultraboy' Shin

Let's rock with some real bloggin'

2010-10-07T14:02:00.037+08:00

Hi fellas. I am making a little change to this space. Maybe a drastic one, depends on how you see it. Well, i've decided to be less of a personal rant here, and start to construct this dancewithmartin.blogspot.com, into sort of a more informative blog for sharing purposes. That's right.

How bouta...sharingwithmartin.blogspot.com. I've no intention to change the link but you get the drift.

Much inspired by Inhumanoid Crew's Brian Aka Booga B. His blog was inspirational, sharing his daily life experience with his 5cents worth insights. I mean, a whole bunch of cats been doing that for the longest time, but his blog, really hits me hard and gets me started to do this all over again. So, mad props, and thank you brother. If you ever dropby this space, you know i love you. hahaa, ok no homo! peace. This is, the power, of sharing.

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Little habitual change here. Gonna start carrying my handy camera around to capture moments, shorts of my life, my encounters, and spread the knowledge, the mykindofworld to others. You might not buy it, you are free to leave.

Talking about readopting to informative style, i am actually quite on fire to get it rockin', but it's fucking 2.30am now. And im still crippled lying on the bed with my injured kneecap. Overdose of coffee in school perhaps.

A sharing bout my current health situation.I tore my softbone tissue few weeks back. The nerve kinda get pushed to the kneecap. So the truth is, walking and running, it's not a problem, but any contact to my kneecap, even a slight facebook poke, almost feels like pikachu doing thunderbolt on my limb.

[PICS: On the left is my red sexy Christmas boxers with my mom's way of treating my knee, and the right, a picture of me enduring the pain, and of course it's not real and it is so retarded to react the scene and tryna pretend how you look like when you are in pain but fuckcare. ]

To my fellow dancemates, or whoever else, please take good care of your own body. It might be too late to realise you only got one part of whatever you have. I never learnt my lesson, been dancing like an idiot all this while thinking im really ultraman, immune to injury. But now, after 3 years of dancing, i got one. It's not a life threatening one but im sure after this, there's still going to have some side impacts left on my knee. So, wear your protections whenever necessary. Fuck it even if it looks stupid on you. dance to express not to impress. Be responsible. ( protection and responsible, sounds like selling birthcontrol...aahaha)

Im done for tonight. I've another entry to share, regarding my trip to 'jungle' for environmental science report. it was so messed up, i wanna share. lol.

ok peace peeps.

Like a true blogsta,
Martin 'Ultraboy' Shin.

Like a true blogger.

2010-10-07T14:02:00.000+08:00

freedom, state of mind.

2010-10-04T14:08:00.005+08:00

只不过是另一个你每天擦身而过的平凡人.

我的事......

(:

何足挂齿.

In our world, state of mind.

The simpler, the better.

Best for the soul,
shin.

365 + 1.

2010-09-15T14:50:00.002+08:00

365.

2010-09-14T01:52:00.001+08:00

Go-me-ne.

STICKYTRADITIONALHANDMADEYUMMYHALLOWEENMIX225G

2010-09-12T11:54:00.004+08:00

God gives us so many ways to live, blesses you and I with the ability to make choices.

Time doesn't wait, we are already set on this crazy journey to pursuit the life of an adult.

Living under the shadow of tradition,

in today's fuckedup society, people just want to see what they want to see, company just want to have 'profit' at the end of the day.

They fkcare bout dreams and passions, kids were all poisoned by the media.

market value got to blind you, make you be someone you don't want to be.

Dream-killing and superficial world.

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Im glad i met you, dance.

You let me see beyond what others see.

To see life in a more spiritual perspective.

To see people get together to just being themselve, dancing to the music.

To meet,

a whole lot of beautiful people, who delicated all their life spreading more than just the artform, but what we can be.

it's never too late, to be what you want to be.

Then again, we never said, it's going to be easy.

But at least, you are being true to yourself,

honest with what you want to be.

And that's living it.

Live for what you love.

Ain't no second chance to relive.

(P.S Oh, but heaven might have some sick dancers, jesus probably can do popping, the OGGGGGGGGG of it all, peace)

Im glad im living,
'Ultraboy' Shin

我们的爱.

2010-09-08T16:27:00.002+08:00

遇见一个可爱女人, 相爱, 1年.

我很爱她, 她给我的感觉, 就是不一样.

直率, 开朗但又敢爱敢恨的一个女孩.

一直都很喜欢她.

只是, 现在的我, 没有办法给她什么.

原来连基本的一些需要都给不了对方.

常常让她流泪.

就是不够细心, 体贴, 让你心痛.

很难受. 原来最后还是走到了一个句点.

心很痛. 你知道哪种, 想挽回, 但又知道不应该的感觉吗?

我很不想你走.

可是我也很明白, 我们再走, 也是不可能有什么未来.

放手可能是我们对彼此最后的温柔.

Baby, i miss you, i love you.

How i wish, i never leave.

Things, would be different.

Still can't embrace the last,
Shin.

Her.

2010-09-08T13:21:00.004+08:00

She asked me, about what i can do for her.

I know i've things i shouldn't do, i know things i might make you upset, things that i will avoid at all cause.

morning call love everyday under my desk stealthing from strict professor who might just send me out anytime. I had things to do, but i might probably forgot to call you in your 5-10 minutes. Just space out the time to call you again.

I know love always has a bad start in the morning, tryna act cute on phone for you maybe can do some help to let her have a brand new day with smiles on.

I forgot how many meals i skipped, how many dinners/breakfasts i had missed talking to you, making sure you get to sleep well, or send you right into your design lab.

Im not perfect lover.

Im not good with surprises or fanciful ways of showing love.

But, as a boyfriend.

I don't think you can say, i don't care, don't love, don't.....

know how to be sweet.

Maybe, in a way, you probably won't notice.

Or maybe, it's just me.

Ever think, if you could be the one who could call me willingly, or even just get a webcam for us.

Shin.

the..

2010-09-07T11:16:00.009+08:00

I miss you.

My ego long faded.

But,

being together,

is it for a better cause?

still love and care,
Shin.

Killer.

2010-08-02T23:55:00.004+08:00

时间能酝酿, 也能疗伤.

可惜, 也是杀手.

Shin.

可爱的女朋友. 她叫大肥. (: aka 猪脸叉叉.

2010-07-12T11:53:00.003+08:00

Not sure how many times i smiled watching this over and over.

<3

好想你.

给我你的爱.
Shin.

Set Sail.

2010-07-07T06:33:00.004+08:00

Heard alot from Felicia about Mexico, and her crazy adventure alone in the past 6 months. Kinda created an impact in me, making me wanna travel somewhere alone to experience life too.

My top of the list destination is kinda weird though. AMAZON FOREST. Im fucking scared of all things that crawl especially spiders, roaches and centipede. Think i probably scream there tons like a little bitch. HAHA. But it gonna be one hell of a crazy adventure there with all those radioactive bugs and head-hunting tribes. Should totally keep an lookout for such trip after i graduate or something. Thumbs up for wilderness thrill! If something did eat me up, i won't have to cremate myself, and i get to return to the nature. rofl! Not bad at all!

I CAN'T WAIT TO BE INDEPENDENT ENOUGH TO DO EVERYSHIT ALONE.

And then, i can be strong enough for them to depend on me.

Keep pushing it,
Martin.

The Arrival Hall.

2010-06-28T13:17:00.001+08:00

How i wish, the next time i step in there again,

its you.

Shin

Crazy talent.

2010-06-25T02:44:00.003+08:00

I was having my own exploring in Manhattan few days back....

As usual, the street's filled with street performers.

Saw this mad talented female singer setting the place on fire with her powerful vocal, singing Mariah Carey's classics.

Something about the culture here,

people hit the street to promote their ideals, their artform, something about them to the people.

Some were mad dope, the rest were alright. But the respect part is when they know they ain't there yet, but they still step it up to live their dream.

For gold, not for soul.

I am still wack, but at least i keep it real.

We keep it real.

Shin.

When will it be me.

2010-06-23T13:30:00.006+08:00

Im not like the rest, with two three shoulders to fall on.

And you know you just have quit the whining, shut the fuck up and fight.

would love for a change, would love to have some companies to walk through some of those stormy night.

But im cool.

I am nothing like what i used to be.

I can do every single shit alone now.

Six months old, 20 years strong,
Shin.

If everything in this world were meant to stay.

2010-06-22T13:26:00.005+08:00

Tear a little on my way home after dance.

Rolling through the playlist,

some makes my body let loose.

some songs remind me of my girlfriend.

some reminds me of the time i dance with my dancemates.

some triggers my hidden self and anxiety.

some brings me into some future tragedy.

What if you are gone like grandpa.

I don't think i can take it.

Please take care of yourself,

and people, don't forget to show your love to them, before it is too late.

He/she might be gone any moment before you even see it coming.

Happy fathers' day to the most awesome superdaddy i have.

Probably the most blissful asset god ever blessed me with.

Hes right next to me, i love him, but its not me to say such things to him.

That's so uncool for 2 grownup dude...but i know..he know i love him.

Buried the 3 words here,

I love you, daddy.

P.S if you really have to go someday, please wait for me, i'll meet up with you soon.

Takes time to love,
Shin.

Someone.

2010-06-13T16:11:00.004+08:00

Will someone take me.

i don't have 20 years thick of friendship to offer,

but if you give me a try,

i probably be just as good as one.

It doesn't matter where it hurts,

it's just me.

It's been six month,
Shin.

Unlimited wants.

2010-05-28T04:09:00.008+08:00

Going down Queens Center next wednesday for job interview in Macy's.

Fuck, you better hire me, i ain't no free to spend an hour doing that retarded 250 MCQ.

I hope the pay's good, best with commission.

Too many wants...seriously...Let's see..

Wishlist

Macbook Pro. I kinda need a new laptop. The current one im using is really laggy. And i feel its a good time to get that. There's a student promotion going on, with $100 discount and a free Ipod touch. Discounted price - $1050

MHC Tee. This is not expensive. Im going to order it sometime this week. >:) Need some nice fitting dance tees. heh

SOHO Shopping. There's a H&M sales going on next weekend.

Dance Jeans. Maybe i'll try Ecko. Its not too expensive.

Adidas X Jeremy Scott. Maybe gettin it.

Hush Puppies. For popping.

Straw Hat Fedora, for popping.

~~Levis Phoenix Blue Flame slim~~

PlayStation 3 Walmart Package $410( I got this)

And alot more..

Bottomline, I need to WORK.

P.S Sugaloo Popping tonight.

Pop Lock FUNK. this song stucked in me.

Satisfy my thirst,
Shin.

Past and Present.

2010-05-26T14:10:00.007+08:00

Make the circle my comfort zone.

Breakthrough, time to get down more from now on.

This time...

Will not be the same as two years ago.

All successful person walked through thousand setbacks,
Shin.

The A game.

2010-05-25T13:16:00.005+08:00

Im back to blog!

After all the time spent on my semester final, it's time for this space to come back to life!

First of all, Happy 18th Birthday to my lovely girlfriend Jolene Crosses ZHU LIAN XX!

And Happy 21st Birthday to my sexy popping partner twinnie Keiths Chua TECK HON!!

This holiday, imma gonna upgrade myself, push dance to the next level.

Did pretty well for academic aspect with a whoooping 3.73 GPA.

Gotta keep my game way up.

JazzyJ class was dope. Its no easyshit. And i was infected by his funkyness. Enjoyed the class so awesome much. Wednesday going for his popping class, and this saturday, it's the annual World of Dance event. Probably like Big Groove kinda shit. Imma gonna go out cypha to get some exposure.

Friday gonna hangout with some schoolfriend for shopping.

And i submitted my resume to H&M. Hopefully i'll get the job.

Im feeling more and more comfortable living in this intimidating City of Big Apple.

Keep on the A game,
Martin Shin.

Encouragement.

2010-04-18T09:09:00.003+08:00

Shawn Desman - We can be better

"uuuuhhh yeah
say
uuuhhh all right

these are the days
these are the moments
the truth that we live with
all of our lives
right here but now
no dress rehersals
no second chances
so what we gon' do about it

oh
can't keep on closing my eyes
cant keep believing the lies
i know deep down inside
we really need to make a change
cause

i wanna wake up knowing ive done all that i can
i wanna wake up feel like i gave it a chance
take a look in a mirror and i be ashamed
so i'm taking a stand today

cause i can do better
you can do better
we can be better
cause i can do better
you can do better
i wanna hear everybody say we can be better

put out a hand
lend out a shoulder
leave on a light to
shine through the night
say you'll be there
say its not over
promise to never
turn around and give up the fight

can't keep on closing my eyes
cant keep believing the lies
i know deep down inside
we really need to find a way
cause

i wanna wake up knowing ive done all that i can
i wanna wake up feel like i gave it a chance
take a look in a mirror and i be ashamed
so i'm taking a stand today

cause i can do better
you can do better
we can be better
cause i can do better
you can do better
i wanna hear everybody say we can be better"

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Just gotta be brave and believe in yourself.

A song for all those who's tryna stepup their game,
Shin.

LEVEL UP-ING.

2010-04-12T07:54:00.006+08:00

First of all, happy birthday mom. Even though you get on my nerve most of the time, i still love you bigbig. Im not the kind who knows how to show love towards my family, but, i'll just write it down here, that i do care. Please be happy. -Martin-

YEPP.

Ive been dancing really hard this days.

HELL YEAH.

My body's getting better. it's more conditioned, finally can keep up to what i visualised with the music.

But gotta keep it up, or i'll lose it again.

Leveled up, i felt. I could feel the freedom in dance. Getting even more versatile now, since i picked up bboy/krump/house along with pop/lock/hiphop. I could do so much more with the music, im no longer restricting myself over style, over the so called standard way of moving. cus,

Music is the teacher.

That said, a long way to go. I gotta hold this feeling, and chiong for the next month, can't fking lose it.

This is just, the beginning of another level. Alot more levels to go, to be dope.

Exhausted, got tons of schoolwork undone.

Time to go back to study mode, study & finish my essay.

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Hao xiang ni.

What've goodlove been doing.

I have got no idea,

but i know,

you are happy at the very least.

(:

Enjoy all the FO n chalet.

Love you much.

x0x0x0x0x0x0.

P.S im still jealous of all the people getting to spend time with you! heee.

because i love you,
M.shin.

EVIL PLOTS.

2010-03-30T06:53:00.007+08:00

One of those days i've got no idea what to blog.

Just updating for the sake of updating.

I don't blog about my daily in-and-out crap anyway.

Im boring.

Goodlove's away, so i'll be a good boy and wait for her return. >:)

Ironicaly, we are always apart. rofl.

ANYWAY, i got a badass plan for something BIGGY.

Imma rock you guys, make balls drop.

Better start collecting dragonballs,
Shin.

Colors, melody, Harmony

2010-03-27T12:31:00.005+08:00

http://colorgenicstest.com/

Guys, try it. It's pretty accurate for me. >:) Dope stuff.

'Your inner-self'

You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.

Most people are conditioned by their environment and you are no exception. You are an extremely emotional person - so much so that 'the wrong word' can lead you to tears. You feel other people's pain. You feel the need of sympathetic relationships and a pleasant work environment in order to develop and grow. You are an impulsive, loving individual with a great deal of inherent feeling.

Loneliness is soul destroying and at this time you feel lost and lonely, perhaps it is because you feel so frustrated that you are prepared to go out of your way to become emotionally involved with someone who could accept you for what you are. You are egocentric, antagonistic and quick to take offence, although it must be said, you can control your pent-up up emotion and thus avoid open conflict.

You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes.

You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If its not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.

Very true, especially my weaknesses and lackings.

Oh well, that's me for you,
Shin.

WORD.

2010-03-27T08:15:00.003+08:00

Back from shopping, spent somewhat less than 100 bucks.

A one-week break coming up baby!

Imma gonna make use of it wisely.

Most of the days are filled with some plans already, like driving, NCCbboy event, Asian Club BBQ/Movie outing, and erm hanging out with my uncle who just touched down last night to NewYork. I promised my bro to cut his hair and bring him out for a shopping spree too.

Yeahhh...i got holiday assignment to be done too. Will do it whenever i got free time.

Life's been good lately, it just get better. >:)

Less than 2 months, i'll be back my homies!!

Pray hard the Renoucement process goes well, and we can hang out, session together all over again.

I can't wait, for what's ahead of me.

Academic check - 7 As for all graded assignments and papers.

Keep it up, me.

Turn the table,
Shin.

Mr. Independent.

2010-03-16T13:08:00.003+08:00

I am glad, that im kind of an all-rounder, with alot of weird skills.

Well, maybe i've seen migration coming, so all the more i forced myself to be equipped with them, or it's just the way i am, curiousity-driven, always want to explore.

I've learnt how to cut hair for my family, and even cut my own hair. (LMAO, but it's not bad okay. heh.)

I've learnt to cook and prepare a meal, people who knows me well enough to taste my cooking, should know im quite good at it! >:)

I've learnt how to approach and take initiative, rather than the usual me, who just wait for what the world gonna offer for me.

I've learnt to manage my time, downloaded an Organiser on Iphone, mature enough to put what's to be prioritized in front of everything else.

I've learnt how to dance alone, discipline myself to drill basics when my dancefriends no longer with me.

I've learnt how to find opportunities myself, because i want my dream to happen.

I've learnt how to take care of my family, because no one could do a better job, other than my dad.

I've learnt to conquer my fear, putting myself through obstacles, i know someday, it won't be a fear anymore.

And then...

I've learnt to wear a mask,

to protect myself.

Mr. Independent,
Shin.

Crawl out of comfort zone : SUCCESS.

2010-03-12T21:10:00.003+08:00

Praise lord for whatever he gave me past few days. It was really a big jump in my social circle and lifestyle. I had been praying for it in the dark, and viola, finally, all bad things turning good.

Well, i quitted the previous crew, i felt that i am not really feeling what they are doing, but it is just perspective diff, what i want in dance, and what they want, the interest/vision's a total clash. I don't like to be a studio dancer, i want to work towards is freedom, music, cyphar, battle, sessioning. Not rehearsal, steps, clean, sharp, perform. Well nothing wrong with what you guys do, but its just not for me. I wish streetz all the best for the pursuasion of ther dream to be the best performance group. No hard feeling yeah? I still have my respect for you guys, for looking far, chasing dream, do what they love to do. (: Big ups for streetz for that.

It's quite a big decision to make, cus cutting off streetz, i'll left with no friend, seriously. But i don't want to betray my own feeling about dance. Quite a struggle. And then, this very fine day, i walked around the CCA drive alone, it was really awkward, but i know if i don't help myself, nobody would. This is my turning point, i saw a group of bboy cypharing, and right next to it, was a club called Asian American Club. I don't know, something just came to me, asking me to give them a shot. So i joined both.

This is prolly one of the best decision i had made. Talk about the NCCbreakers, they are so humble and nice peeps. Cus i always got the impression bboys are cockylameshit, but i guess, just 2 session with them, i foster some kinda brotherhood with them already. And they are getting me into their crew for a battle/showcase. I LIKEEE. ahha (: And then im already helping out to teach newcomers for pop/lock/hiphop basics already. I just love to spread this knowledge and love for dance, i wish i could contribute more to educate, let more people enjoy the dance scene. (: Just a lil lmao, i went to one of bboy's wall, and he can play dragonball using guitar. I din know the blacks love asian culture too. hahahahahaha. But oh well, dragonball IS a classic.

Asian American Club. Heh, it was great, got a warm welcome from them. Totally eye-opener, a room packed with all kind of asians. You name it, you got it. And they made me dance a little at the end. hahas.

Well, ofcs, since things are going well for me, i gotta help Samual too right. He's a pieece of shy nerdboy, who don't know how to make things work. I dragged him with me to AAC anyway. So i hope this could act as an medium for him to open up.

I just got a text from my dancefriend in BDC, he got this BDC showcase, and he needs dancer, so i gonna do a showcase for BDC too. And this dude, he knows how to krump. I so gonna ask him for basics man.
>:)

Academic-wise, im doing just fine, all assignment, i aced them, but then again, its just the start, i got to maintain this grade man. StonyBrook, my target. If i could graduate from StonyBrook, my future will be much much smoother.

It just get better,
Shin

Scream.

2010-03-06T11:19:00.003+08:00

Just if there's someone there for me,

i won't keep falling till what im now.

Now that i thought of it, everytime things go haywire,

someone always pull me back together.

I can't rely on anyone now.

This sucks.

But i'll learn everything the hard way,

fall to the deadpit's end,

and revive in time.

whtk, sngwydaygh.
Shin.

Empty your cup.

2010-03-05T06:04:00.009+08:00

Previous attempt, i took way too long.

Before it's too late,

I had to remind myself.

Let go of the past.

I had lost everything, this is all new, embrace it.

I can't take my past to cover for the present.

How could i fill it up, when the cup's already full.

It's hard, but,

empty it,
Shin.

why.

2010-02-28T15:07:00.008+08:00

为什么, 自从你踏进我的世界后, 我开始做了很多不合逻辑 连自己也无法理解的事.

为什么, 晚上在电话上的你, 总是听不完我用心想讲给你的话就睡去了, 但我又不介意地爱上你半睡的状态.

为什么, 每天每夜, 成为你的闹钟, 竟然是一种幸福的负担.

为什么, 帮你写稿的时候, 就算已经很累,很累... 还是看着我们的照片, 跟自己加油.

为什么, 为了在你最需要我的时候准时出现, 我总是傻傻地开着你的twitter 死守.

为什么, 你需要我的时候, 明知超过了时限, 我都不肯放下, 直到你笑为止.

为什么, 你嫌我烦的时候, 我很乐意为你消失, 让自己选择性地出现在你想我出现的时段.

为什么, 你发脾气的时候, 我会乖乖地屈服为你的沙包.

为什么, 每当你出手伤我的时候, 我又愿意默默承受, 转身笑着安抚你的心情.

为什么, 我努力地靠近, 却开不了你的心房.

为什么, 就算不能在你身边给你很多, 我会在我能做到的一切去禰补我们的短缺.

为什么, 就算我愿意成为你的完美情人, 偏偏还是抵受不了时间的煎熬, .

为什么，我明明是想写一些气话, 但又不想一时冲动写一些让你不开心的事.

为什么, 我写不到一半,

上一秒,

我已经哭出来了.

原来, 爱一个人, 是种无条件的付出, 自认败给你的俘虏.

给你,
shin.

Impermanence

2010-02-25T23:59:00.007+08:00

“IMPERMANENCE – THINGS CHANGE”

Whether we learnt to embrace the hard fact or not, the ugly truth is, nothing in this world will ever stop evolving as long as the hands of time remain functional.

Just ten years ago, I was still a naïve little boy, bragging how wonderful this deceptive world could be, living under a shield of parental love, whining my way to get those tiny palm on a scoop of Ben N Jerry ice-cream. Yet, today, no matter how much I missed those days, it could never be the same anymore, as time had forced us to grow up, to face the much complicated, twisted society. As I move on to different stages of life, I came to a personal realization, that life can be such a bitch, because all good things don’t last, bad days strikes you with a sucker punch. Most of the time, you just had to keep one eye shut and live with it. That’s life, how impermanence.

In a religious setting, such as Buddhism, it was told, that this world we are living in, is an ever-shifting space on all levels of existence. In fact, those that has not yet accepted change as a natural state of nature is denying the reality, as we come into being and pass away. All is in a cycle, nothing outruns this inescapable change, and because of this transitory nature, people are therefore afraid of change, and at the end of it all, to be transformed into a non-existent being - death.

As suggested on it being an ever-changing environment on all levels of existence, Impermanence, could come in so many different possible forms, varies in its nature and impacts on diverse aspect of life. For instance, a good form of example would be a human life cycle. Beings were blessed with a positive change in physique as we stroll through our puberty stages, to gradually weaken as we hit the retirement age of 60. The nature of this change tends to be genuine, with a specific pattern as of how it is being set to change. It then directly causes impacts, which in this case, perhaps could be our daily in-and-out activities, alertness and sensitivity of the five senses, as we grow old.

At a different level, Impermanence could come in a larger scale of effect. When the world starts to merge towards a new age of technology, millions were found unemployed. Job opportunities have been diminished by the fact that machines are now the perfect labor for men. To counter for the above changes, we ourselves, have no alternative but to alter ourselves in order to survive the current era. Individuals had to equip themselves with other skills, take appropriate changes to themselves, and this, proves why Impermanence always exist, as change creates a ripple effects without fail, and we beings live in a ever-changing world , like a game of domino.

Impermanence, however, always brings about changes that are not desired by us. Some of them are within our locus of control, while some just make us helpless. When we are having a lecture in campus, the professor will always inform students before hand, about the cancellation of class, switch of venue etc. These are actually changes that one could predict as it is being told and observed. Usually, we do not have many difficulties in adjusting to pre-warned changes other than a little rant, like a tax increase.

However, the real pain is yet to come; those that we couldn’t foresee, those that we couldn’t prevent. Just recently, Haiti had been going through a major earthquake that took away thousands of life. It was brutal and unexpected, as the survivors broke down over their loss of property, loss of their loved ones. Sometimes, it makes us wonder, we could have saved so many innocent life-forms, just if all of which, are within our grasp. Also, some impermanence, like death for example, is a nature of change, we hate to accept it, but it is just the way it is. All beings are subjected to pass on after their life energy was depleted completely. What should we do tackle these cruel judgments of Impermanence?

Today, people fights against Impermanence. We make full use of our knowledge and technology, to reduce the amount of Impermanence. Some of which were observed, and we are working our way in preventing the change to occur. One good example would be the depletion of Ozone layer, as we do all we can, holding the Iceland intact, introducing more environment-friendly products. On the other hand, those that we couldn’t prevent, like the weather, is being forecasted and a warning is bring broadcasted for us to do appropriate measures. On the higher end of science, we are even trying to alter and merge our DNA with other life-form, to lengthen our lifespan.

Still, at the moment we could not possibly seize all kind of impermanence, and in my opinion, we never will, as we are living in a world, suffering from a domino effect of Impermanence. Yet, not all changes are bad, and we need changes to drive each individual to improve. You and I could do so much to cause a change in the Impermanence. We don’t necessarily need to rely on others to prevent nasty impermanence. How about you smile to the one next to you now, to make a positive change for the rest of his/her day?

Essaying,
Shin.

Makes me wonder.

2010-02-16T00:42:00.005+08:00

It seems to me Newyork, still not the ultimate place for us to settle down.

A 3rd migration plan would be crazy...

Im so darn sick and tired of re-adjusting myself to new places.

Dad suggested China, no offence, but personally, i kinda hate that place, even though people like us would be in high demand there.

So what?

i want the culture, i want the scene, i want the people, i want the lifestyle.

And i seriously think we should head for something higher, like California or something.

That would make more sense to me.

I don't want to live a easier life.

I want a life of Martin, of us.

Final Destination to somewhere,
Shin.

Go Martin.

2010-02-06T11:41:00.004+08:00

Keep ur head's up, i know u know things will get better as time goes.

Ain't no easy to start all over,

let's not rush it.

In fact, its getting good no?

Start to have some communication with classmates in school despite this college culture's more of like the commute system, as told by my cousin.

And then, Luam class every week neveer failed to make my blood boiled for some groove. Got a dance session tmr, and Streetz training starting next weekend. niceee. it feels like, things are getting into the right places.

And know what? i had my first on-road driving experience. It was mad fun, and somewhat, easier than i thought it would be. March, i will be driving my Toyota crossing city and state, all I WANT. PWNAGE. Can't wait to get my hand on that lic.

Sometimes...it feels....really lonely. But what can i do, i can't rush things now. How I wish, god will bring some nice friends and opportunities for me to shine again, asap.

MartinShin, ur mad dope and nice, just wait for ur time to come. That's what i believe! HAHA.

I have faith in myself, to make it better, day by day.

Innervoice speaks,
Shin.

陳柏宇 - 逸後

2010-01-31T00:06:00.005+08:00

煙花已散落地　飛灰似錯落地 ( Firework scattered..even if its dispersed for the wrong reason)
來提示著我不要希冀 (It's prompting, that i should stop my wishful thinking)
應早知這世界　從來無完美 ( Should've known, there's no perfection ever exist)
難逃避共你　別離 (It's hard to avoid, parting...)

即使教我妒忌　祝福我已預備 (Even jealousy comes around, im ready to give you my blessing)
仍期望下個可給你福氣 (Still looking forward, the next will make it right for you)
自願犧牲　來容我捨棄 ( Self-sacrifice, to give up)
如前面路更闊　更勝與我一起 (If the road ahead's wider, way betta than being with me)
何況道別成就你 ( why not just let you go...)

今天起各有日後 ( From now on, we'll have different tmr)
如花火　攜不走　無需要　定擁有 (Firework that i can't carry , should not even, be with me )
讓我拭去眼淚背著你走　別回首 ( Let me shield away my tears to leave you in the dark, don't look back..)
復原後不要再度跟你做朋友 ( Don't be my friend, even if the scar heals)
我怕我念舊 ( Im afraid, i'll miss you)

將心痛與寂寞　交給我去負荷 ( Hurt and Lonliness, just let it all burden on me)
能成就大愛不枉痛哭過 (If i could make it right, my tear will make it all worth)
但願一天　仍然記得我 (But someday, how i wish u still remember.. )
同遊異地雪國　見証最暖花火 (us walking in foreign land, witness the warmess firework)
如何耀目存在過 (how brightly we exist before)

今天起各有日後 ( From now on, we'll have different tmr)
如花火　攜不走　無需要　定擁有 (Firework that i can't carry , should not even, be with me )
讓我拭去眼淚背著你走　別回首 ( Let me shield away my tears to leave you in the dark, don't look back)
復原後不要再度跟你做朋友 ( Even if the scar heals, please dont be my friend again)

今天起各有日後 ( From now on, we'll have different tmr)
曾相擁　曾牽手　在心裡　仍足夠 (Used to hug, used to hold hands, but its okay as long as i remember the feeling)
願我所愛以後帶著笑口　便無憂 (I wish from now on, my love will smile more, without worries)
願明日他會替代這個舊朋友 (I wish he will replace her old half)
永遠共你廝守　Hoo (Stay with you forever..)

安好的各有日後 (Happily ever after..)
曾相擁　曾牽手　在心裡　仍足夠 (Used to hug, used to hold hands, but its okay as long as i remember the feeling)
為愛惜你我願放下你手　讓你走 (Because i love you, im loosen my hand, letting you go...)
復原後不要再度跟你做朋友 (Even if the scar heals, please dont be my friend again)

我怕我念舊... (Im afraid.....i'll miss you...)

:'(

I actually felt very strong for this song.

new fav song,
Martinshin.

Discipline.

2010-01-29T12:36:00.006+08:00

I made it a point that from monday to thursday, will be fully concentrated on college work. Need my As to transfer to a decent College.

Anytime besides that will be put into drilling for dance.

At least 1 BDC class a week. Well if session's available, will just head down for some dose of it.

I've been getting quite alot of feel and freedom for dance lately. Maybe watching some favourite dance videos really help me go hard on what i love doing most.(EXZE WCO ftw!)

Just drilled a few hours or so on isolation, waving, bounce, hitting etc etc. All the basics i could ever remember. I could say, im ready to climb to the next level.

Next time, when i hit into a circle. I want to rep for Martin Shin, rep for my love and passion, rep the music, rep the beats.

Soul's all time high, I feel strong for what im doing, why im moving.

mind's quite right, when i can go out and know for the right reason why im doing this.

and i need my bodyunderstanding, my basic, the knowledge of how to move.

body mind soul,
martinshin.

The real deal.

2010-01-27T00:38:00.002+08:00

Remain,

Fearless.

MartinShin.

Insomnia Part 2.

2010-01-24T08:50:00.004+08:00

Was up the whole night.

It felt as if the gate closed on me.

Couldn't sleep at all.

Whatever left behind back there,

seems to far away now.

Browsing through different sources,

No matter how i see it,

it's like a game of Russian Roulette.

Im scared to take this step.

But theres something,

something so big back there,

that worth the risk.

'Tell me something i don't know, fill me up in the risk's non-existence.'

Tonight, memories and nightmare's on replay.

destroy the barrier,
Martin.

Warmth.

2010-01-18T10:46:00.003+08:00

Relatives touched down last night,

and we just had a really heartwarming steamboat gathering at my house.

Somehow,

i felt,

that im not that alone anymore,

even though it might be a temporary sort of bliss.

----------------------------------------------------------------

Im freaking back in shape.

Time to explore and leave a legacy of MartinShin in nyc.

Go, me!

yay, me! ( a bite from Brenda Song, LMAO)

Okae, that's gay.

Harder, better, faster, stronger,
MartinShin.

Delicated to my sis, faith.

2010-01-18T01:42:00.003+08:00

Well, this post, kinda delicated to my sister back in Singapore, the Heaven&earth girl. lmao. ya know, every single time i go L4D with my crew after sessioning last time, never failed to see ur face in the Lanshop vending machine.

And yea, thanks for the postcard, my first letter from friends back there eversince i came here. Im doing well, and hope to see u and everyone soon yo.

It says,

" Merry christmas!

Hey! P.S: take a pic with this lightbulb and post it on ur blog! i want to keep it as a momento.

Faith(sist) "

And there u go! Just grab it. (:

Thanks! And i will see u very soon in 4 months!

And to the rest of my friends, i cant wait to see yall, night sessioning, chilling, gossiping. Lmao.

AND OFCS,

i want to see my girl.

my one and only, JoleneCrosses zhu lian cha cha.

马天很想你.

<3

Soon,

dream will turn into reality.

MartinShin.

Reset doesn't exist.

2010-01-14T08:20:00.016+08:00

I don't need any sympathy.

Keep it to yourself.

I will climb back to the top,

with my own capability.

Sorry though, that i can't keep my cool at times.

Tough time, only natural for me to feel this way,

cus i care.

Sometimes, advancing's so harsh, but there's no turning back now.

Martin.

Shine.

2010-01-08T00:11:00.003+08:00

They grouped him with the marble,

but if you really know him well,

he can be a gem.

He can shine,

better than you,

pearls.

Don't judge him now, just because he loses his glamorous side.

Shin.

Tell me, tell me, tell me, something i don't know.

2009-12-28T10:06:00.003+08:00

You know,

i miss you alot,

Miss Jolene Crosses zhu lian cha cha.

Hopefully, i can make it back in time for your 18th bday.

5 months to go! Not too long, not too short.

just be brave and be happy.

And u always have my support for whatever you wanna/tryna do.

luvu.

---------------------------------------------------------------------

Nightmare's over.

Maybe its just me. haas, having this birthday-phobia.

Thanks everyone for the love, all the wishings, all the encouragement.

Im good now.

And erm, gotta prepare for wednesday's placement test, then come SAT.

Still,

my dance life and social life's on hold,

maybe i just don't know where to start,

or perhaps,

not sure if i will make the right friends/place for myself.

Too unfamiliar with the culture, the people.

Can't risk it right?

Let's just see a few days more, before i start going out to get somewhere.

All the warnings from peers and family, im building a shield around myself.

Who can be trusted?

Who's really harmless?

tell me something i don't know.

Martin.

26th's cursed.

2009-12-26T13:20:00.005+08:00

I think im the only kid around who's deprived of love/attention on this special occasion for 21 years straight.

Don't mind me.

I've got all the reason to hate 26th Dec.

Birthdays = Lies, jealousy, tears, depression, disappointments.

Im never happy,

never smile on the 26th.

In fact, im experiencing past scars all over.

Still counting,
MartinShin.

Show me your love.

2009-12-22T12:49:00.004+08:00

First white christmas.

I thought i'll be happy....

But da...

im kinda fated,

to be alone on the 26th,

like the previous 20s.

And it won't make a difference this year,

Even on my 18,

It passes,

like it doesn't exist.

Jealous know, all the birthday parties, all the cakes and candles, all the love.

I only remember getting stucked in HongKong every december and my birthday's nothing compared to grandma's, at least that how they see it. She's gonna be here in a few days. History repeats, she got the occasion, and i can just stfu n pretend.

So yea. i'll tryna be strong, and take my mind off negativities.

If imma make a birthday wish...

i wish...

"26th never come again."

Guess its never my thing,
martin.

This is, the real start.

2009-12-14T07:54:00.005+08:00

Finally, left my uncle's house in Long Island for good.

And we are on our own from now onwards.

Nothin' bad, i love having my own space and all.

And we have freaking 179 boxes of shipovers to digest, along with our furniture, and those that uncle gave us.

Next few days, will be stayin home to get rid of all those.

Afterwhich,

we'll be good to go.

What's next?

im not too sure myself. haa.

Dance? Driving Licence? SAT? Study? Work?

Whatever it is, i will know, in time to come.

'how i wish i can be part of recital ): '

I really miss...dancing alot.

And one more thing,

Happy 3 months goodlove. (:

A song for you, tonight.

Waddup,
Shin.

T-shirt, on.

2009-12-09T09:12:00.005+08:00

Tryna decide, tryna decide if I really wanna go out tonight.

I never used to go out without ya', not sure I remember how to.
Gonna be late, gonna be late but all my girls gon' have to wait cause'

I don't know if I like my outfit.

I tried everything in my closet.

Nothing feels right when I'm not with you.

Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choo's.

Take em all off cause I feel a fool.

Tryna dress up when I'm missing you.

I'ma step out of this lingerie.

Roll up in the mall with something Hanes.

In bed I lay

in nothing but your t-shirt on.

In nothing but your t-shirt on.

Gonna miss ya, can't wait to kiss ya.

Gonna wrap you up in my ar-ar-arms.

Adore ya, do anything for ya

I'm gonna work you out as soon as I get home.

My baby, my lady, right now i can only send you text from a phone.
Crazy, that's what you make me.
Cause I don't want to go another night alone.

I know I'm not u-u-up in the club and you will never hear about me with another girl.

Got keys to my heart, you own my love.

I'll never, ever, ever, ever give you up.

And I can understand why you hate it when I'm gone.

Cause I'm so love-sick when I'm on my own.

Hold on a sec, I just got your last text.

Its a picture of you with my t-shirt on.

Its a picture with my t-shirt on.

And I can't stand to see you with my t-shirt on.
Wanna walk through them doors and pull it off.
T-shirt on, I can't take it no more I'm coming home.

Tryna decide, tryna decide.
And I'm tryna get by, tryna get by.
(Oh I) couldn't even leave my apartment.
(There's a pain in my heart and I can't stop it)

Nothing feels right when I'm not with you.
Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choo's.
Taking em off cause I feel a fool.
Tryna dress up when I'm missing you.
I'ma step out of this lingerie.
Roll up in the mall with something Hanes.
In bed I lay -(Baby)

Nothing feels right when I'm not with you.
Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choo's.
Taking em off cause I feel a fool.
Tryna dress up when I'm missing you.
(Cause I miss you)
I'ma step out of this lingerie.
(I miss you baby)
Roll up in the mall with something Hanes.
In bed I lay (I'm gonna be in bed) with nothing but your t-shirt on.

Nothing but my t-shirt.
Said i got nothing but your t-shirt on.
Cause I wanna be close to you (Nothing but your t-shirt on)
I remember when you would like to see me with nothing but your t-shirt on.
(Nothing but my t-shirt on)
(Hey) Nothing but your t-shirt on.
Let me tell you, no (Nothing but your t-shirt on)
With nothing but your t-shirt on.

And it feels right with nothing but your t-shirt on.

How sweet.

Martin.

Things, that i can't give.

2009-12-06T09:59:00.006+08:00

What's wrong.

I've been fighting.

People said, im stupid and naive.

But i do believe in the bond.

I thought im being thoughtful and giving,

but there's so much i can't give.

Was it just a transitory moment for a change,

or was i the one being the transitory good as time goes by.

I've been running back and forth for a trace of my worth,

but im not seeing any sign of it.

:'(

How i wish,

you will still love me all the same,

despite me,

being useless,

being the one,

running in circles for you,

who cares for all the small things i could accomplish,

but never the big picture,

as a boyfriend.

How bout just,

a sweet little 'i miss you'...

Tough night to get through,
Martin.

Bearing the Distance.

2009-12-05T11:28:00.006+08:00

Dozing off, waiting silencely on skype.

Wishing,

that the status of yours will change.

It's been 3 hours.

And i don't feel like sleeping,

until i could reach you.

This is crazy,

but im too in love with you.

"Offline" to "Online" please,

Keep staring,
Shin.

When the long battle drag-on.

2009-12-01T06:31:00.008+08:00

Today, another hopeful yet fruitless trip to iron things out.

Can't sleep last night, praying and worrying the outcome the next day.

Ended really nothing much,

just exchangin convo, walkin in circles.

Then i realised, despite all my efforts put in to find a way to get through this,

im still not making even a slight progress.

I tried every single shit that seems to give me some hope,

but nothing's helping.

It's just wishful thinking all along.

I lost all my spirit and drive to continue fightin this prolong battle.

Damn...im all worn out.

That's it.

No more of me typing emails after emails,

no more of me waiting eagerly, desperately for replies,

no more of me begging around for help,

no more of me listening to all the rejections,

no more of me hugging myself to sleep,

no more of me, getting compared.

No more of me,

putting down my pride.

If you don't want to give it to me,

this is for you.

_]_

Fuck it.

FML.

Those who tried helping, im grateful.

Thanks.

What's faith when all hopes failed,
Shin.

Day 10, A day-off from everything.

2009-11-27T13:15:00.006+08:00

Day 10: Thanksgiving day.

Alot of things still unsettled, but i guess i gotta just stay positive and wait for further notice from Old Westbury. No use gettin all worried.

For the time-being, for the festival, i want to be happy and trouble-free.

Anyway, want to thankgive whoever encourage me in this period of tough time, especially my family. They really helped me alot, sitting down together, trying to figure out all the alternatives to get me somewhere.

Too beautiful. omg. Guys, you gotta be here to really feel and admire the whole scene. Central Park of Manhattan. Ice Rink...reminds me of ahem. haa. I wonder if shes doing fine in Shanghai. She probably shopping like some mad woman. lol.

And then we went to Broadway, another nice place to be and definitely a dream-comes-true heaven for all the dancers/performer in the world. Randomly, i witness a bboy dance battle in the subway, pretty cool moves, just that they don't listen music. Heh, oh well, i will come across even doper ones in time to come.

INTERESTING FOUNDS

ALERT! Naked cowboy in manhattan!! ;P

And A rare black squirrel for everyone.

It serves the same meaning as a four-leaves clover.

Take care friends.

I miss you all.

'As i flipped through the scrapbooks, i found myself smiling, and tearin the next'

Life of a nomad,
Shin.

Tough.

2009-11-25T13:59:00.002+08:00

Why the light still refuse to shine,

despite my countless effort to make it work.

The 10Fs haunting me every night,

i hope things will fall into place soon,

as long as i don't fall and give in.

Only got one month left to settle this before Spring University admission comes to a close.

Ugghhh...F-uped...So frustrating,

but i just gotta keep finding alternatives and keep trying.

It's at this kind of tough times,

i realised,

i need you so much, baby.

I need some comfort,

no matter how strong i can be.

Insomnia,
shin.

Pretty colorless frame.

2009-11-24T12:20:00.008+08:00

Every morning,

push over the door,

its as if im trapped in a fantasyland of my own.

A pretty cooling sight to set me off for the day's journey.

Never failed to mesmorise me with the things here, the people, the culture, the lifestyle, this whole new world different from anything i came across.

Yet...

It's just another black and white frame,

without you.

Missing everyone, missing her,
Shin.

New.York Week O.N.E.

2009-11-23T09:17:00.012+08:00

Finally, got the time to do this.

The past week's been a really crazy hectic one for Shin,

And things were getting betta as we gradually clear all the necessary issues and procedures to be done.

Too many of them to be named, i'll jus briefly list out some of the things i remember.

Things ironed out
- Apply for Social Security Card and other related immigrant procedures
- Apply for bank accounts
- Settle residential document
- DIY furniture for new house ( only my room completed)
- Buy Washing machine and Beds
- Basic necessities purchased ( Shampoo and blablablaaa, more to be done)
- Visit Colleges to enroll ( Found Old WestBury, but yet to apply)
- Iphone 3G purchased, its a pretty awesome invention.
- Request for original transcript from TP
- BLOG, which im doing currently. lol.

Things Yet to be done
- Awaiting reply from TP for original transcript

- Visit Broadway dance center
- Tour around with Crosses' da jie
- much more to do on the renovation of new home

- Get driving licence
- Apply SUNY
- Purchase something like Ezlink
- Loads more of things to buy and do, that's all i remember as of now.

Interesting findings
- People buy cars and use petrol like FREE. Uncle Wai alone, got 4 cars. wtf, and its considered normal.
- Lobster season now, US$3.50/lb! Too bad i cannot eat.
- ANGMOH'S TALL, now this is a MYTH.
- EDIT: they CAN BE tall, most are just ard asians' height. Oh but the blacks are tall here, this one's true.
- Tips' compulsory here.
- my house got a backyard which i so gonna dominate it and the rooftop's pretty cool to sit and emo.
- NEWYORK'S COLD LIKE FUCK.
- But i like it, cause i don't have to sweat.
- AND I SAW KOREAN CHICKS HERE earlier on when i visit this korean supermarket.
- People here, their English all damn imba. hahas.
- And i think im slowly gettin the hang of it, the Slang.

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Yeahh, that sums up what i did and experienced past days, and finding school ain't easy at all, cus TP screwed me up with the 10Fs. And im still workin my way to clear all those obstacles so that i could get into Old Westbury University of NY.

Gotta work and take respinsiblites for what i desire. Internal Locus of control, but still,

Hope things will fall into place somehow.

And baby just flew off to ShangHai.

Awww man..that's 8 days cutting off communication. Hope she will be well and all, cus ive heard about the organ-thefts. kinda freaky.

baby, if you read this, PLLLEAASSEE stick and stay close to your parents. Don't do anything that risk yourself there yes? Wear extra layers of clothes, those tinyfats of yours not gonna pretect you. (:

Me, loves you.

More photos to be uploaded. Now that things are gettin alright, i will maintain this place better.

YEAHHH, hear from me soon guys.

P.S Lobsters for dinner tonight!

ALERT: 4 Jolenes spotted!

missing everyone,
Shin.

HongKong, Last day, New York, day zero.

2009-11-21T10:12:00.006+08:00

Touched down NY, new environment, new start.

But im already missing all my homies back there...

Will be missed.

Please take care of yourself brothers.

Will be here, waiting for both of you.

Come over and join me soon.

Don't let me be too lonely here.

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And the time, space, distance just increase between Crosses and Shin.

Xiang ni, zhu lian cha cha.

Shin.

Under my wings.

2009-11-06T06:16:00.004+08:00

Recently, I cut my hair, even changed my style of dressing.

No more baggy stuffs for awhile.

A new look, set me for a brand new journey.

Hopefully, i'll make it right this time.

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And then....

been living under one roof with a someone at her 80s..

dote on us much,

and she's been devoting her whole life worrying/protecting her precious circle.

Always has high hope on me,

yet time's running out,

i can so feel it she's mentally prepared to join the other half.

Besides, there's so many restless souls and disputes over migration.

Not sure who's with us to the new world till the very end.

But i just gotta know,

there's so many precious, right in front of my eyes,

i must protect.

really must work hard,
Shin.

Halloween was awweeessummeely kool heerrree.

2009-11-01T20:18:00.012+08:00

Starting off post with my irritating emo 'im missing Jolene Crosses' face. :P

Yay, Jolene Crosses and martin Shin are finally 'in a relationship' on facebook. <3>

Back in 6 months! Me, running closer to you, as the clockhand ticks.

Ticks to crosses. <3

Halloween's really very happening over here, in HongKong, Central!

Everyone comes together and party through the night, people dressed themselve up and take photos with the passerbys.

Here's some of the photos i took with the 'ghosts'!

Sailormoon = ghost? L.O.L

AND, we end the day eating supper at Mac.

Back home, talk to goodlove abit, before sleeping.

Heh.

To add on, The wargame few days back's seriously a price to pay.

Cuts on my limbs and loads of mosquito bites spread thru my body, it almost felt like we got some skin disease or sth.

Fun experience, and got a battle scar on my neck.

It's not THAT safe afterall. hahas.

Anyone playing, please follow the safety measures and instruction.

Really really, f**king pain, especially when your teammate customised their gun.

yeah.

Peace, and with that, i miss my friends, and jolene crosses.

Take care and keep smiling while im away.

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GoGo brothers will be conducting a locking course, starting this wednesday at 'Ones to watch' studio. Can't wait, to meet the locking pioneer.

Heh.

And, it seems like the dance scene here,

somewhat above/on par with Singapore's level.

Tell you more when i meet them in person.

Missing you,
Shin. <3

2009-10-29T10:47:00.000+08:00

Baby

Bu yao zou.

Ying wei ni ai wo.

wo ye hen ai ni.

<3

Shin.

Helpless..

2009-10-29T00:05:00.003+08:00

And then,

i realised,

It's not easy to live alone. :'(

Separated by Distance, time and space.

I can't even reach her in time to tell her how much i miss her, how much i need her to be with me now.

The night's getting colder...

and it's getting unbearable.

Please hold me.

because im afraid of losing you,
Shin.

Feeling it.

2009-10-28T04:10:00.007+08:00

林宥嘉 -說謊

是有過幾個不錯對象
說起來并不寂寞孤單
可能我浪盪讓人家不安
才會結果都陣亡

我沒有什麼陰影魔障你千萬不要放在心上
我又不脆弱何況那算什麼傷
反正愛情不就都這樣

我沒有說謊我何必說謊
你懂我的我對你從來就不會假裝
我哪有說謊請別以為你有多難忘
笑是真的不是我逞強

我好久沒來這間餐廳
沒想到已經換了裝潢
角落那窗口聞得到玫瑰花香被你一說是有些印象

我沒有說謊我何必說謊
你知道的我缺點之一就是很健忘
我哪有說謊是很感謝今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不習慣

我沒有說謊我何必說謊
愛一個人沒愛到難道就會怎麼樣
別說我說謊人生已經如此的艱難
有些事情就不要拆穿......

我沒有說謊是愛情說謊
它帶你來騙我說可我渴望的有可能有希望...
我沒有說謊祝你做個幸福的新娘....

我的心事請你全遺忘 .....

The day i lie, will be the day i died.

It won't come right.

How could i even cry to this song.

How could i feel so strong for this song, this image...

no, it won't be..

I should sleep.

Shin.

寂寞好了, not until i see you again.

2009-10-28T01:30:00.005+08:00

寂寞，好了 - 蔡旻佑

拼命的奢望闷坏的胸口让我想大声的呐喊
我努力不放你冷淡你让分手就这样
我连做梦也感觉受伤
一年过了还是一天计算着慌张
计程车上的音响我们最爱的情歌
这一刻却重重击破思念的心脏

夜深了我怎么办寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂想她念她恨她
一个人你害怕吗细数过漫天星光
说好永远不分开多假多假多假
让记忆长出翅膀飞翔
心放空了寂寞好了

坚强外表下我脆弱情人节开始失常
别人庆祝我却很失落
秋天过了冬天漫长
关于爱感伤
我们天真的勇敢我们追求的梦想
舍不得也只能收藏旅行的时光

寂寞感冒全都可以好的
爱多甜伤多痛都释放 oh~
没有你心放空了寂寞好了

hao xiang ni.

Shin.

And the crazy life in HongKong continues.

2009-10-26T14:08:00.015+08:00

Past 2 days' been busy going out with my people.

And here i am, rotting at grandma's place early in the morning,

trying to blog and do some updates.

Some interesting changes' that mom will be flying off to Singapore later tonight, and dad will be joinin her on sunday. They will only be back like on the 11th November. And that would mean....FREEDOM, and more privacy. I swear it sucks to stay here cus they are always home and i feel so uneasy webcaming, and that doesn't mean im doing anything WRONG, haa i just don't like people constantly observing me.

And on the 16th November, will be stopping over Korea for a few days, before departing to my final destination, New York City.

Anw, this wednesday, will be going War-game with my cousins and his friends. 10 vs 10 paintball game that lasts for 6 hours. Gonna be awesome fun, and later on tonight going out shopping with Nelson and L, not sure if im staying at grandma's place, cus she gonna be lonely if i go over to cousin's place to stay. But then again, i really hate it here, feeeling kinda shitty last night, and very lonely. Darn, should i be cruel to myself? Everyday spent here, just make me more and more lethargic.

Curse*curse*curse*....and to add on, mom and grandma quarrelled for god-knows-what-reasons just now. So i guess its safer for me to go my cousin place, save myself from meddling into their business. heeeh.

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24th Oct - Dinner at Grandma's place and Kbox overnightehhh.

Went over to grandma's place for dinner, and we did some camwhoring on our trip down.

Then after dinner, later at night, we went for kbox. It's 8 hours of kbox, all the way to the next morning. Did alot of crazy stuff inside. From camwhoring, filming stupid videos of us singing, to song battle, and later, delicating a song to our loved ones, and videoing it down. Heh.

Much much more photos and videos to be added/posted either here or facebook. heh. yeahhh..

And we were all so drained after the session.

Straight after i got home....

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25th Oct - Visit Grandpa + Shopping.

Never sleep at all, that explained why i mia-ed for the past 2 nights.

And here goes, some photos of us visiting our late grandpa. Nelson gotta work, and L's too dead to go anywhere after last night. Heh, but joining me later for shopping yoo. (:

Yeah, photos of my 4 younger cousins. Used to be cute when they were younger. Now they are just plain NOISY AND IRRITATING. AAHHA.

Meee, still feeling f-ing sleepy after last night...and i too lazy to do hair in the morning, so just put on my headgears and set for the day.

Photos with grandpa-

This lil demon here is L's brother. You won't want to know him, like seriously. But somehow became my follower, after i accepted his pineapple jelly specially made for mehhh. Him, always trying so hard to mix with the older clique of cousin. hahahahas, and never failed to get bullied.

Sorry, i vain, i admit. aahahhahas. Alright, then we off for lunch.

My lunch! :D

Shopping afterward!

And i got something for goodlove. <3

Hope you will like it. heh.

It's on our blog sweet.

AND THAT! kinda sum up what i did!

TOO LAZY, cos i got alot of things to do later on!

Late already! HAHA.

Me, changing and preparing to go Shatin to eat dinner at my cousin's place already!

Blog again tmr or sth! With all the videos we took so far.

YEAHHHHH. And im glad that im sleeping over my L's place later.

All the lonliness and insecurities, will be seized temporarily.

Miss my friends loads,

miss zhu lian cha cha,

miss the affiliation.

Cos i think i need it.

walk on,
Shin.

HongKong days, Start of something new.

2009-10-24T16:34:00.003+08:00

My first post after settling down in HongKong.

Cleared all my blogposts for both http://www.dancewithmartin.blogspot.com/ and http://shincrossespaths.wordpress.com/, as well as facebook, twitter and uploading of photos.

Finally got the time now to do this. Anw, im good here in HongKong, and its really my kind of thing to stay here. So don't gotta worry for me, and shin misses everyone back there.

Just yesterday, went to meet the judge for this interview with my family and whoever-relatives going over with us. And now, we are officially accepted into NYC, just take me to stay in NY for around 2-3 years to become a citizen of the States.

'Koped' L's SexyDiamond Jacket to camwhore abit, before leaving house to HongKong-University, he will be my tour-guide of the day yes.

Camera added to the 'Martin's survivor kit'.

It's part of my homework now to camwhore ya noe. Later someone misses me too much how? haas, and i find it quite important to blog about my daily in-and-out life now, since we got lesser way to inform and communicate with each other. wink wink*

The street of HongKong, Causeway Bay, SexyDiamond there! But never dropby cus i forgot where is it. LOL.

HongKong U! And sorry i never really take much photos of it. haa. It's just one skyscraper and nth more for this campus.

Life in HKU's pretty much like Poly. Projects....more projects...and bla bla bla..Comlabs' a direct bite from TP's Silicon Lab.

Then during break, L brought me and his friends to eat here.

VERY NICEEE AND APPETTIZING~~. HAA.

After lunch, back to the lab, and i was so bored cus they are discussing project. SO..i decided to randomly call Gen. Heh heh heh and disturb her. 28th of October will be going to play Wargame with my cousins' friend. 10 vs 10. LIKE FUN SIOH. Sure got alot of bruises after that. YEAH, then i will look more manly. haaa.

The day continued as we went down to meet another group of friends to interview some manager of a japanese restaurant ( Note: L's a LRM student in HKU), and i quite impressed by their professionalism. Later at night...

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Webcamed with zhulianchacha.

Awwww...so cute. hahas. but i guess, she's very drained after a long day in school, dance training and all. She dozed off halfway and i snapshot-ed it down. HAAA. Should i post it on facebook? hee. Got more unglam ones. OOPS. HEEEH.

Wo hen xiang ni, wo de nu ren, Jolene Crosses.

Misu much.

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Later going off to Mongkok for this relatives gathering, and then kbox overnight!

YEAHHH, will blog bout it tmr once i get back home.

Do miss me, peeps.

This is the 4th day and it seems like 4 years,

Hugs and kisses,
Shin.

Departure videos.

2009-10-21T23:06:00.014+08:00

Props to Justin for the videos, ass, they were such tear-jerkers.

heh.

Departure Part 1

Departure Part 2

That posted, i will remember this moments forever, whenever i read my past post again.

Please remember all the events that happened that day.

Tmr, meeting the lawyer and judge for this interview to approve the citizenship and stuff.

Missing everyone.

And especially her.

Time, please forward.
Shin.

Good-bye, and delications to my sweet angels.

2009-10-20T22:10:00.017+08:00

Touched down.

And...i dunno where to start, and what to say, because i got too much things going thru my mind now.

But all in all...thanks everyone for making this departure day so awesome, bitterly sweet to the max.

And even though departure sucks, but this is my best departure ever.

The thoughts, the love, the presents, the surprises, the tears from everyone,

Im feeling it.

我会记得.

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To ZhiXiang,

You know how much you mean to me, and i know how much i mean to you. Heh. Best friend will always remain as bestfriend. Next month's your ORD. like, finally! your out of the shithole. Make good use of time before you get into Uni wokay? I want to see you with long hair again. HAHHA. me, you, best pal, always the 2 idiots constantly running ard in YJ desperately escaping from discipline master's attempt of cutting our precious hair.

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To KevinDoodlePants,

Take care bro, later i come back you die already, where to redeem my 20bucks and supper. haaa. You've been one of my bestfriend and dance/shopping-partner! (: When i come back, we'll session and chill again, and kinda sound gay, but i especially miss you ter jonas keiths. But when we meet again, you know you jus gotta apply sunblock, cus imma gonna burn you, reduce you to ash. Train hard pants! we'll been thru so much tgt in our dance journey...

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To Ah Ter ( TerrenceSpringMelon!),

With Kevin, we are the Ovation Trio, and i truly treat both of you like my best best bro. Whenever the 3 of us come together, i will feel this special bond between us. And rmb those time when we did our debut performance for this church event. It's totally crazy, to just meetup and train 10 minutes, then L4d few hours. (: And then the time when i get my first paid dance perf. You are one who bring me to a greater height in dance. And my beatbox's awesome cus of you too. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. Take good care of yourself, and i lub you bigbig ter. Please go find a constant job soon, so that you can yang da sao. And then, i will have no worries for my bro here, cus your great dude. Same goes to you, i will burn you to ash when i come back.

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To Jonas black Tie,

My black tie bro! man....i've seen you cried a lot past few days before departure. And it really breaks my heart. Life's never dull with you around, and now that you are not ard, i miss all your stupid jokes and spastic-ness. I won't ask you to stay strong because you are one tough shit. Just do what you like and go for whatever you want to do in the future. And yeah, B.I, Black tie, DRC, Ovation, Lostnfound definitely won't be our last crew with each other. there will be more to come. so wait for me to come back bro. (: and if that day comes, i will come over to ur place and stay, ur turn to cook me some nice food. haa. and ofcs, i will burn you to ash when i come back.

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To keiths twinnie,

my retarded look-alike. WHY DA HELL YOU CRY IN THE VIDEO. Hahas. It triggers, and then, i no longer can hold back my tears. Younger than me, but always acting like the bigger bro of mine. Someone who always been looking out for me, and i know it, and i really love this bro of mine. keiths....I hope i can stay longer, because i really want to join this year 'FTL' with you, be it hiphop or popping. But i guess, we just gotta wait abit longer, then when i come back, let's do this again. And we gotta redeem ourselve for ftl08.

Won't say i want to burn you when i come back, cus i want to burn people with ya! (:

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To Gen my dearest mama,

you are simply awesome and inspiring in so many ways. We've come this far together...dancemate...classmate...hangoutmate...churchmate...crewmate...and then...even mom and son. hahahas, and i gotta say i love you, and i hope you continue to persuade your dream, let your voice touches and reaches out to even more people out there, heal them with your voice. And then, i hope i can see you really soon somewhere and i can be one of the first few to get your album. Be waiting to hear from you, and your son will work hard and continue doin you proud over here, at the states. your bible, i'll cherish it. Please take good care of yourself and your back. you still own me a kbox and iceskate session. will be comin back to redeem it. YEAH...son loves mommy. PEACEE. heh.

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To 'kupo' liting,

Live happily ever after with your YewYew(oily-oily, hahaha!). I can't give you friskies anytime soon, but i know he will feed you with love, and so will your friends. Take good care of yourself, and stay the way you are, the big fat round white bimbotic pussy cat 'kupo' of the legendary poppinshin. (: It was nice, knowing you, and we've been thru quite abit together though its only a short one year. will be missed, and stop biting me! Biter! haha. Peace.

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To Fion xiaomei,

I miss bullying you, it's always so uber fun to irritate you. HEH. But now that im gone, please take good care of yourself!! And i always find it very amusing that we became really close dancemate when we'll used to be not that close even in G9. haha! You've been a great friend of mine and i love my meimei. Be more confidence, and try to go out and session with the lockers/hiphopers out there, and im sure you will reach a whole new level in dance. (: Just keep trying, and don't gotta care about what others think about you. Dance like no one's watching! Fion improved loads since she first stepped into tpde. And i'll keep improving too! See you in the circle when i get back.
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To Aaron and Chewie,

Firstly, im so sorry that i never been a good christian. But despite that fact, yall never give up on me. Every single sunday, without fail, a message will be sent to martin, reminding him where they are sitting in expo hall 8. And then, this idiot here will never ever show up. haa..well....I just don't have that drive to commit, i don't know why. But, deep in my heart, i really do believe in god, and i still do seek him every now and then. You guys are great friends to me, and the weirder here will come back in half a year, then maybe when i see the message again, the outcome will be different. Till then, please take care (:

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To Chansee,

hahas. dude, out of everyone, i worried for you the most. Please get your focus right, study hard and stay positive always, be it for yourself, for your frens, or her. And i'll miss you over here. Jiayou son. And today's your birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU and now ur officially a big boy. Gotta be stronger, and protect everything precious to you. I'll be keep reading you and everyone's blog. When i come back, we shall session and l4d again aite! PEACEEEE.

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To Niger,

I missed the Ovation days, when all of us come together and improve together. Frankly speaking, that's the time where i actually improved the most, as i start to take it out of tpde and start to mingle with all the dancers out of my cca alone. You've got good foundation for dance and i really hope to see you go far. So jiayou k! When i come back, let's crossteach each other what we learn for the past 6 months. And i will charge you 50 cents/ song too. HAHAHAHA. See you very soon but not so soon. (:

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To veron and Ah J,

My lao nai ma and cao bu! I never ever see it that i brought both of you into Basic Instinct and all. I jus feel its dance that bind and make everyone comes together and learn from each other. Its all in the name of spreading love yeaahhh!! heh. And i gonna miss you both alot cus i feel really comfortable with yall around me. Missed tranny for clapping and laughing and taking 27 with me everyday, missed AH J for spamming vulgarities when we late for training. LOL.

Will be missed, alot alot. (:

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To Byrant ( Our B.I leader),

I admit starting i don't really like you cus you are so distracted whenever i teach you popping back in the combased days. Heh. But now, ur a totally different man to me. You did a really great job as a leader of the crew, and i respect you for that. (: You and Jonas never failed to crack up random jokes to make training so enjoyable for us. And dude, i heard ur stopping dancing. Please continue, and be it as a hobby, jus spend some time comin down for session and chill with everyone. Everyone misses you. heh. And i miss you too. Train hard! (:

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To My TPDE/Sessioning(Ovation,B.I, Wed) dancemates,

It was my honor to dance along side with everyone, improve together, persuading dream as a team. All the tough and crazy time tgt, i won't forget. And it's a pity that i never get to know some of them betta, especially the juniors. See so much potential in this current batch. Hope they can conquer themselves and take it to the next level very soon. And I, will work hard over here at NYC as well. PEACEE. hee.

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To my dancing masters ( Danny, Rahim, Jer, Ben, AnAn, Gin, Ryan, Xiaohei, Niger),

Im very grateful to this people, simple 'cause they are so inspiring, and they guide me one way or another during my dance journey, moulding me into what im today. Really really hope to see you guys again, and when i come back, i will show you a better me not only as a dancer, but as a person. Keep spreading the lovee.
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To May, Yanti, Amelia, Iman, Fion, Fatin and other parts of G9/Ophix,

I love you guys. Though at first, i don't really like it cus yall were soooo freakin loud and public nuisanse. But soon, i realised you guys were a sweet bunch and i feel very comfortable to hang out with ya. And i still rmb how shocked and suay i felt when i know May's my classmate for year 1. L.O.L. But i guess, without May, being the noisy dancing queen ard and brought me with her to know more of the camp peepz and G9, martin's polylife gonna be so uber boring. heh. So yeah, yall definitely someone who create an impact for shin. (: Im grateful, and all the time spent having fun tonning, doing weird cheers, i will remember. Take care people. ;)

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And....

To this special someone of mine...

To Jolene Crosses,

i love you so so much. And i really hope that you can be here with me now, so that i can hold you tight in my arm, give you all the assurance that i'll be with you all the way. Don't really know what future offers for us, but i promise i will do my best to keep this precious love running. six month baby, i'll be back for vacation. Just stay very positive and spend more time with friends and all. Badlove will come online whenever possible, skype with you, webcam with you, update our secret blog, and constantly inform you bout my daily occurence.

See you tonight love.

Me, loves you.

And im on a restart button,
Shin.

Finale.

2009-10-20T12:54:00.001+08:00

This is my last moment.

Taking a last good look at the surrounding.

It's time to go.

Had our very last dinner, and she's now with me.

Fulfilled her wish of helping me style hair, and you gotta help me wash it when i get back as promised aite?

I've got too many debts to pay, and too many ppl owning me things!!

So......all this little things, shall create a bond between you and I for the longest time.

Flights at 6.40am, time-check, it's 1am now, and i should get going.

P.S. SengKang's actually pretty awesome, and so's Singapore though it sucks cos the weather kills penguin like me.

Last post before i leave.

And i will only post it up once i get there. heh.

Martin gonna be strong later,

won't want to show my tears.

k......

LET'S GO.

Shin.

Our very first month.

2009-10-15T02:25:00.003+08:00

Awesome night at Sentosa with goodloving.

And God's been wonderful to us the whole time.

Blessed us with a beach of our own, gorgeous food under the starry moonlight.

There's some firework too yea.

' Goodlove, thanks for taking the time and effort to make this day memorable for me. It was sweet, not only because of the thing you did, but the fatigue reflected on you , knowing that baby been doing all this day and night sacrificing sleeps, just to exchange for a smile on me. Goodlove, this is my sweetest one month,

and more months to come, with you.

Please hold.'

P.S. The scrapbook's soo darn sweet, and i've been staring at those pretty pancakes for awhile. Can i just keep it? heh-heh-heh.

luvu,
Shin.

Last Lap.

2009-10-13T01:11:00.003+08:00

Just like a fairytale.

It ends, when it strikes twelve.

I should have known,

but i've been positively fighting till the end,

thinking that there must be light penetrating.

Snap.

And it's all mere illusion and me being too imaginative.

7 days.

Did i left anything behind?

Unsaid? undone?

The journey was too awesome...then again...

If i can't buy time, i can't buy love,
Shin.

Zoo with Goodlove.

2009-10-12T01:25:00.003+08:00

Don't have any photo with me.

But yeahh, it was awesome.

All the... time taking random photos,

All the... time feeding animals,

All the... time screaming at our favourites,

All the... time watching you screaming at your favourites,

All the... time holding your hands.

All the small little things,

I will remember.

Shin.

Closer.

2009-10-07T02:32:00.002+08:00

baby, 不要离我太远.

Time, please learn strobbing.

lovin you,
Shin.

7+7. & 不会分离.

2009-10-05T00:56:00.009+08:00

在K房,

那一秒,

我哭了.

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Awesome date with my bestie.

Xiang, i hope that's not the last time i'll see you.

1 more month to your ORD.

Spend the next 9 month before Uni to live for your dream.

It was awesome the whole of yesterday.

Shin.

天才,白痴.

2009-10-02T03:41:00.004+08:00

I dreamt that an octopus makes its way against the flow, wrap me up with its tentacles, and tell the whole ocean that it gonna eat me.

Must be One-piece overdose.

But i know it won't happen.

And i think i know why.

Because,

it's just a dream.

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直觉告诉我, 原来我最傻.

傻在....

我高估了自己的重要性.

傻在....

其实乍蠢,

全是为你付出的机智....

Im strong right?
Shin.

This world is getting fucking ridiculous, but i still gotta live with it.

2009-09-28T02:27:00.002+08:00

我不开心．

Anyone wanna club or drink.

Im up for it.

Shin.

20 days.

2009-09-28T00:37:00.003+08:00

3 weeks left.

So what now.

I've been spending time on the right faces, just to realise i gotta remember them right.

Telling myself, that's probably,

the last piece of memory to keep,

last time being this close.

After that,

everything will change.

I don't think i can see this faces like how i did few years down the road.

YEAH...

Bros and sis...

Just gotta remember..

WE USED TO BE THIS CLOSE OK?

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19.10.09.

That's the end right?

Thank you for the last walk.

It's been beautiful. like you said.

I know i don't have any rights to ask for ridiculous things.

But i really appreciate the fact that you come close,

hold my hands,

knowing we are heading next to nothing.

I will embrace my own destiny.

luvu.

What doesn't kill, always make me stronger,

But it sucks, cus it still hurtful.

haahaa.

Shin.

不想放手.

2009-09-21T13:13:00.005+08:00

时间冲破了30天的防线.

开始看到1个月后我们无法逃脱的命运.

在闸口前的那一刻, 把你紧紧抱在怀里, 抓牢你的小手.

就算时间不肯为我们停顿,

我又怎能松开，放开你的手呢?

并不期待我的未来, 是否憧憬.

没有你, 全世界都停了电.

tears,
Shin.

Tons of secrets and nice clubbing.

2009-09-21T06:44:00.002+08:00

Homed, after clubbing.

Suntec's pretty good, and dancescene in Singapore just keep moving higher and higher.

Every year more newbloods, and the old ones keep climbing to the next level.

AWESOME AWESOME.

I gotta work harder.

Whoooo, mad props to all the team and soloists. I LIKE basic5, ClapUrHands and Jeremy/Nic/Luqman/Daniel Solo man!!

All the dopeshits.

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After suntec, went to eat with everyone,

down to Jacky's birthday party for abit. Whoooo, Fbodz territory. HAAA. I swear they will jus cypher whole night long.

And then, after that, went to Rebel with Ter and Veron to party.

Guess who we met there?

GIN, XUEHUI, ANAN, XIAOHEI, FREDY, EVE AND ELLEGRA! Then later on saw Lorencia and Chong as well.

"Ter gets uber high after 2am."

Its proven, ONCE AGAIN.

HAHAHA. And loads of complaints to emily cus Ter anyhow touch me. He just gotta control, cus im not his Ai Ai.

Okay. Im sleepy. Last night was fun.

BYEBUAI.

And i feel abit sad?.... cus i never talk to you much today. Aww...

missin the cross,
Shin.

Ugly Truth.

2009-09-19T02:05:00.002+08:00

The Ugly Truth's sucha awesome show people.

Nice catching up session with Gen and Zhixiang.

One is my best friend, the other is my best mom. L.O.L

Great JC and Poly buddies.

Some of those memorable figures shin crossed path with.

I guess...its people like them, that makes departure extremely hard for me.

Gotta keep in contact all my loves.

Remember me.

And then, i learnt about an ugly truth from Gen.

Shocking, and disappointing.

Tell me how to trust someone with my trust again.

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lastly,

i want to say im missing someone real bad.

ticks misses crosses.

If im a time traveller,
Shin.

Endless Hiatus.

2009-09-18T01:15:00.003+08:00

Hmmmm, just some reflection on my way back.

I felt that im seriously too free and not doing anything productive.

And don't know how long will this hiatus last.

After this month, another month in Hk, and then maybe a few more months on New York before i can actually resume my studies.

Frankly, i hate every single minute of me, wasting time.

Screw it....

but as far as im concern....this month left, i will spend time with all my loved ones as much as possible.

Sooo....don't blame that im like sticky? heh, cus i just can't help it.

I've got nothin betta to do.

Damn.

Shin

Setting my own path right.

2009-09-15T20:15:00.003+08:00

Been runnin away for quite some time,

fate rejection.

and then i finally spent the day settling the NS document, research and register for University in NY, asking myself where and what i want at the end of the day.

Aiming for either Baruch and Queens College.

Both schools seem dope, one's more futuristic as it situated in town area, with a campus of 18 level, high tech stuff, while the other one's more of high school feel, cozy with pretty attractive ambience. Still figuring out which one to enroll though, and i hope my qualification's enough to take me in. Awww...

The only one thing to complain's that they don't come with a streetdance cca. hahas, so guess i got no choice but to take it to the street, or attend classes at the 'Broadway dance studio'.

Talk about Broadway dance studio, i soooooo gonna go there and learn from all those pioneers like Buddha stretch, Wiggle and Junior Boogaloo.

The path seems less foggy, but will it be as smooth as it seems.

Gotta be strong for myself, no one can hear my scream soon

I have faith in myself,
Shin.

14.09.09

2009-09-15T02:20:00.005+08:00

14.09.09

A day to remember.

Very special occasion.

For you and I.

our very own mid-autumn festival.

Hope i make it memorable for you.

She's the Girl For Me - Stevie Hoang

She's the finest girl that I've ever seen
She'll be on my mine like a melody
No words can't explain what she means to me
No matter what she do, she's just so sexy

From her eyes to her lips, she got it going on
From her thighs to her hips, she's got a player sprung
Every time she walks on by
Shawty got me sayin'

[Chorus:]
She's the girl for me
Gotta make her mine
She'll be all I need
Gotta make her mine
And maybe this could be
My chance so I just
Gotta make her mine
Gotta make her mine
Gotta make her mine
She's the girl for me

I'll be thinking about her all the time
Looking things to say up in my mind to
When I see her I'ma get it right
I'ma hide my game on time

The way that she smiles, she's got it going on
The hair and the nails, she's got it all done
Every time I see her face
Shawty got me sayin'

She's the girl for me
Gotta make her mine
She'll be all I need
Gotta make her mine
And maybe this could be
My chance so I just

Gotta make her mine
Gotta make her mine
Gotta make her mine
She's the girl for me

And if she turns me away
That I did my best to say
And I didn't miss the chance
For a shot at sweet romance
And then now I'll be on my way
But at least she heard me sing

She's the girl for me
Gotta make her mine
She'll be all I need
Gotta make her mine
And maybe this could be
My chance so I just
Gotta make her mine
Gotta make her mine
Gotta make her mine

She's the girl for me.

(:

Misu,
Shin.

最佳损友. <3

2009-09-11T02:10:00.003+08:00

Tonight's our last night.

Thanks for eveything.

All the love and care,

im taking them with me.

Be back in a month, wait for me guys.

The week's like my sweetest escape.

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Walked this far together as brothers watching backs, being next to each other......

And this song belongs to nobody but us.

Feel me right?

Didn't it just happened to be the last song, and i believe you know i know and i know you know.

That's the last moment delicated to each other.

It's heartbreaking, when you actually mean every word you sing.

最佳損友

朋友　我當你一秒朋友
朋友　我當你一世朋友
奇怪　過去再不堪回首
懷緬　時時其實還有

朋友你試過將我營救
朋友　你試過把我批鬥
無法　再與你交心聯手
畢竟　難得　有過最佳損友

從前共你　促膝把酒　傾通宵都不夠
我有痛快過　你有沒有
很多東西今生只可給你　保守至到永久
別人如何明白透

實實在在　踏入過我宇宙
即使相處到　有個裂口
命運決定了　以後再沒法聚頭
但說過去　卻那樣厚

問我有沒有　確實也沒有
一直躲避的藉口　非甚麼大仇
為何舊知己　在最後　變不到老友

不知你是我敵友　已沒法望透
被推著走　跟著生活流
來年陌生的　是昨日最親的某某

生死之交當天不知罕
有到你變節了　至覺未夠
多想一天　彼此都不追究　相邀再次喝酒
待　葡萄成熟透
但是命運入面　每個邂逅
一起走到了　某個路口
是敵與是友　各自也沒有自由
位置變了　各有隊友

問我有沒有　確實也沒有
一直躲避的藉口　非甚麼大仇
為何舊知己　在最後　變不到老友
不知你是我敵友　已沒法望透
被推著走　跟著生活流
來年陌生的　是昨日最親的某某

早知解散後　各自有　際遇作導遊
奇就奇在　接受了　各自有路走
卻沒人像你　讓我　眼淚背著流
嚴重似情侶　講分手

有沒有　確實也沒有
一直躲避的藉口　非甚麼大仇
為何舊知己　在最後　變不到老友
不知你又有沒有　掛念這舊友
或者自己　早就想通透
來年陌生的　是昨日　最親的某某
總好於　那日我...　沒有...　沒有..　遇過..　某某.......

Alright, i confess,

i cried secretly halfway through.

And then,

Looking forward,

我生命的新一章,

即将开始......

Will it be greener?

cus im already satisfied with what im having now.

不要离我太远.

P.S. Blog about the whole trip soon when they tag me the photos. ( And im turning back to a honkie-minded person)

Flying back tmr.
Shin.

2009-09-05T02:30:00.007+08:00

I M BACK.

THIS IS HONGKONG,

THIS IS,

LIFE.

( P.S. The photos like 2-3 years back. HAHAHA. )

And the whatever worries i've got just disappeared with my homies standing by me.

Let's parteee my people,
Shin.

Change Of Tide.

2009-09-03T10:51:00.004+08:00

All the begging and tearing gotta stop.

It's okay. I understand.

I guess...just like what mom and dad said.

' its time to pack something now,

my feeling.'

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Everything changed this morning.

Can't help, but start missing and cherishing everything badly,

even the morning sun that never fail to piss me off every morning.

Flying off tmr to HongKong, gonna meet all my homies, L and Nel.

I should be feelin excited.

yes yes.

And i'll be be back in a week. Chillll...

Just..that...

I don't think....

I'll be around for Halloween.

Early departure.

P.S And sorry to Kevindoodlepants, can't celebrate bday with you. DAMN. But i swear it gotta be great for you, you know what i mean. Sorry to Rahim too, din get to send him or celebrate farewell with him before he enters NS. Yeahhhh...

Im sorry,
Shin.

焦虑, 迷惘, 寂寞, 无助.

2009-09-02T03:30:00.003+08:00

3.30am, and i can't freaking sleep even though im like so damn drained.

What's with this anxiety.

And this morning, the letter i received is like getting me all worried.

My future, can someone show me some light?

When will it be my turn.

What lies ahead, how to deal with all this.

I need some direction, some guidance...

some assurance...

some security....

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And then,

maybe someone voice at this hour can calm me down.

I miss you, and you and your everything.

Lonely night,
Shin.

A not-so-pleasant morning.

2009-09-02T00:47:00.008+08:00

又再失恋地暗昏天全失分寸
谁令你再还原朋友真经典劝谏千遍仿冰水洗过面

自信一点自爱一点何必恋战
人若要行前就加点气焰眼神能更闪

曾死心不息为着挂念某君任痛苦蔓延
曾多么疯癫但是最后这一天
鸣谢我的好友每天互勉

像中一枪亦当轻伤重申方向
求荡气回肠最佳的印象博全场赞赏

曾死心不息为着挂念某君任痛苦蔓延
曾多么疯癫但是最后这一天
鸣谢我的好友每天互勉 (I believe...love goes on..and on)

人生多苦短别为挂念某君浪费一万年
回忆虽新鲜但是已事过境迁
曾死心不息为着挂念某君任痛苦蔓延
曾多么疯癫但是最后这一天

鸣谢我的好友作出奉献

Ohhh...thank you.

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didn't have the chance to K this song earlier.

To all those who walked with me through the past 8 years.

Thanks you.

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Had my share of fun kboxng tonight,

but there's so much more songs i want to sing.

good way to let out some unexpressed emotion,
Shin.

40 days of night.

2009-08-28T01:21:00.005+08:00

100 days mark - Perhaps it's time to think about what's right and left for me to do.

80 days mark - Drawing closer....gotta cherish what's right in front of me now.

60 days mark - Anxiety kicks in.

50 days mark - Not much time left, damn, what a waste of time to stay idle.

40 days. What now?

Im scared,

of,

losing everything.

it just get stronger.

fcuk.

stop the river,
Shin.

2009-08-28T01:21:00.001+08:00

The Limited Edition Jolene Crossified 'PoppinShin' Tee.

2009-08-25T01:11:00.010+08:00

Current mood : Dark Choclocate, Bitterly sweet.

Just came back from a really long day. And i guess, im really very happy today. (: Cus...i totally din see this coming.

Thank you a special someone for this super uber chio Tee. (: Man..its so sweet, pretty, and thoughtful,

just like its designer. (:

That's.. my favourite color (Red),

with diamond on it! ( Sexy diamond heh!)

with the logo at the back! ( SXD again haa!)

and its the perfect size for me,

with its chio 'Poppinshin' font,

and with you in it. (the bolt? (: )

I'll grade it 'A' if im your lecturer,

and i really love it to bits!

THIS!

JUST MAKE

this, so insignificant,

until i actually forgot that i gotten myseld a SXD vest today. L.O.L.

THANK YOU Jolene Crosses Lee Yu Xuan Goodloving FunkyFats Qiu for everything. (: hug*

I'll hug it to sleep every night, keeps me warm through the white christmas.

Missing you,
Shin.

Reminiscing.

2009-08-23T20:28:00.004+08:00

I can't even remember them,

what makes people remember me then,

10 years down the road.

But at the very least,

the love, the friendship,

happened before,

at a real time and space.

Im already reminiscing the past,
Shin.

Green Tea Ice-cream.

2009-08-23T13:36:00.003+08:00

Japanese Summer Festival's interesting.

hhahhahaahaa.

(:

For a moment, i thought i am really in Japan,

with you.

A day to remember,
Shin.

Good morning love.

2009-08-18T14:56:00.003+08:00

每天叫你起床, 是一种幸福,

shin.